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A lot of people go out in public,
have fun with their friends,
and don’t have to worry about anything
except the normal adult stresses.
Work, bills, family, kids ….
I wish I could be like that.
I go outside and all I see is eyes.
Eyes looking at me,
judging me,
silently making fun of me.
I wasn’t born like this,
thinking that everyone is watching me.
But I went a LONG time being made fun of,
teased and put down.
I went through school
getting made fun of
cause my eyes where too big,
I had a birth mark on my nose,
I was short,
I walked funny,
I ran funny,
I talked funny,
I was awkward.
And I couldn’t help it.
But all those insults stayed with me,
and now all I see are eyes.
I want to bike to work, but I’m scared …
I want to take up Martial arts, but I’m scared …
I want to do a lot of things,
but I can’t escape the eyes.
The people watching.
In the back of my mind I know they aren’t …
not anymore.
We’re not kids.
But I’ve been programmed that way.
And I can’t escape it ….
So I shut myself in,
don’t talk,
turn to things that can’t judge me.
I hide in books,
escape into someone elses life.
I play video games,
because at least I can have artificial friends for a while ….
I prefer meeting people online
because they can’t see me face to face
and at least if I make an awkward mistake
I can pass it off as a “miscommunication through text” …
I hate that I’m like this
and I hope one day I can get past it ….
but it’s hard ….
have fun with their friends,
and don’t have to worry about anything
except the normal adult stresses.
Work, bills, family, kids ….
I wish I could be like that.
I go outside and all I see is eyes.
Eyes looking at me,
judging me,
silently making fun of me.
I wasn’t born like this,
thinking that everyone is watching me.
But I went a LONG time being made fun of,
teased and put down.
I went through school
getting made fun of
cause my eyes where too big,
I had a birth mark on my nose,
I was short,
I walked funny,
I ran funny,
I talked funny,
I was awkward.
And I couldn’t help it.
But all those insults stayed with me,
and now all I see are eyes.
I want to bike to work, but I’m scared …
I want to take up Martial arts, but I’m scared …
I want to do a lot of things,
but I can’t escape the eyes.
The people watching.
In the back of my mind I know they aren’t …
not anymore.
We’re not kids.
But I’ve been programmed that way.
And I can’t escape it ….
So I shut myself in,
don’t talk,
turn to things that can’t judge me.
I hide in books,
escape into someone elses life.
I play video games,
because at least I can have artificial friends for a while ….
I prefer meeting people online
because they can’t see me face to face
and at least if I make an awkward mistake
I can pass it off as a “miscommunication through text” …
I hate that I’m like this
and I hope one day I can get past it ….
but it’s hard ….
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